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Fandom: Supernatural
Characters: Sam Winchester and Aaron Birch
Rating: PG and gen
Author's Notes: Written for the spn_bitesized Challenge of Three for elliemurasaki's Price of Justice prompt.
Spoilers/Warnings: Spoilers for 6x03.
Disclaimer: These characters belong to the CW.
Length: 300 words
Summary: Sam has a little advice for the kid.

Sam startled awake to a low whistling sound, silver knife in hand. He glanced over at his brother in the other bed. Dean was on his side, as if spooning someone smaller. His whole life, Dean had slept on his front. His snoring in this position sounded wrong.

For the past year, Sam had been sleeping on his own. Even when hunting with the Campbells, he’d gotten his own room, kept his distance. Sam had bad dreams sometimes. He never remembered what they were about. He didn’t know if he made any noise, if he thrashed around or said anything in his sleep. Dean could probably tell him. If he asked. Which he wouldn’t.

Sam turned on the lamp. Dean shifted onto his stomach, face turned away from the light. Sam snagged a piece of motel stationary and sat down at the table to write a letter.



Aaron –

I get it.

When my brother died, I didn’t stop until I made his killer pay. A lot of people got hurt on the way, and I lost … myself, I guess.

You might be thinking that it’s over, with them dead. That life will get better now, and you can go back to being who you were. It won’t, and you can’t.

All you can do is be there for your dad. Fake it, if you have to. And try to make things right. That’s all.

Sam



Four nights and 900 miles away, Aaron Birch sat in bed under a tent of his covers. His flashlight drifted from a letter on motel stationary across three newspaper articles about the dead officers, coming to a stop on a photo of two little girls standing by their father’s grave.

Aaron’s sobs shook his body, but he choked them quiet. Dad needed his sleep.

Comments

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counteragent
Oct. 10th, 2010 06:12 pm (UTC)
Holy shit. That was great! I always really enjoy your work, no matter how short.
keerawa
Oct. 10th, 2010 06:27 pm (UTC)
Thanks, counteragent, I appreciate the feedback!
whitereflection
Oct. 10th, 2010 06:13 pm (UTC)
Really insightful parallel, very nicely done. And just an absolute bullseye on Sam's character at this time from those starkly honest words in the note. Brilliant idea and presentation.
keerawa
Oct. 10th, 2010 06:30 pm (UTC)
Thanks, whitereflection. I am really feeling for Sam at this point.
tifaching
Oct. 10th, 2010 06:25 pm (UTC)
Right on target. You can't go back. Nothing will be right again. Just move on and try to fix things that are probably broken forever. Fantastic insight.
keerawa
Oct. 10th, 2010 06:32 pm (UTC)
Exactly. Sam's headspace is pretty damn bleak, here. Thanks, tifaching!
mrscastielftw
Oct. 10th, 2010 06:33 pm (UTC)
Brilliantly honest.
keerawa
Oct. 10th, 2010 06:39 pm (UTC)
Thank you, mrscastielftw. Sam's all out of compassion. Brutal honesty is all he has to offer now.
just_ruth
Oct. 10th, 2010 09:41 pm (UTC)
Wow. That's really sad. I don't like what Sam's become - if it is Sam and I really have my doubts that it is.
keerawa
Oct. 10th, 2010 10:54 pm (UTC)
*nods* That it is. I think it's Sam - just a damaged version of Sam. We've seen him shut down emotionally before, like in Mystery Spot. But only time will tell.
borgmama1of5
Oct. 10th, 2010 11:28 pm (UTC)
Effective look at the aftermath.
keerawa
Oct. 11th, 2010 12:23 am (UTC)
Thank you, borgmama1of5!
labseraph
Oct. 11th, 2010 03:49 am (UTC)
That was so beautiful. I want to take it as a missing scene; especially in light of how hard Sam has become this season.
keerawa
Oct. 11th, 2010 02:21 pm (UTC)
Thank you, labseraph! He is - but I have hope for him.
jensenrick
Oct. 11th, 2010 04:56 am (UTC)
Wow, this is deep. Thank you so much for this look at Sam.
keerawa
Oct. 11th, 2010 02:22 pm (UTC)
*chuckles* Thanks jensenrick!
mikes_grrl
Oct. 11th, 2010 01:46 pm (UTC)
Very moving! I love the *abscence* contained within Sam's observations and actions. It's like he's there, but he's not whole, even as he tries to be.* I loved the use of the letter to Aaron, something the boy can ignore or take to heart according to his own conscience, which to me was a lot of what that ep was about. Fantastic! Thank you. <3



*(which, okay, my own prejudice but I think Sam's missing his soul, so he's trying to be what he thinks he should but missing the mark, which is what Dean notices. Idle speculation but I think it works...)
keerawa
Oct. 11th, 2010 02:25 pm (UTC)
Absence - that's a good way of putting it. Sam's trying to cope, trying to fake it, and he's not really succeeding. The 'missing soul' theory is a plausible explanation, but we've seen Sam go all emotionally-locked-down Super Hunter before under stress, in Mystery Spot, so it might not need a supernatural explanation.

Thanks, mikes_grrl!
zubeneschamali
Oct. 12th, 2010 12:07 am (UTC)
Ooh, ouch. But spot on for where Sam is right now.
keerawa
Oct. 12th, 2010 01:40 am (UTC)
*nods* It's harsh, no doubt. Thanks for the comment, zuben_eschamali!
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