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Title: Meditations on Existence as a Multidimensional Wave of Celestial Intent
Character: Castiel
Rating: PG, gen
Author's Notes: Written for the spnland 'Day to Day' diary challenge. Thanks to panther_kitten for the beta.
Length: 375 words
Disclaimer: These characters belong to the CW.
Spoilers/Warnings: Spoilers for 6x03.
Summary: The song of Heaven grows discordant.

2nd Chorus since the Fall of Michael
Sam Winchester is out of the cage. None among us know how or why. The uncertainty has sent the garrisons spiraling into chaos. Many of the celestial spheres are completely inaccessible. There is destructive interference among my brothers. The song of Heaven grows discordant.

3rd Chorus since the Fall of Michael
The Archangel Raphael has imposed order by recruiting a significant cadre of angels to support him in his bid to restart the Apocalypse in what he terms ‘obedience to the Divine Plan.’ I have become a central figure among those opposing Raphael’s forces, primarily because Joshua has spread word of my miraculous twofold return from the Void. I find the rapturous attention of my brethren rather disturbing.

5th Chorus since the Fall of Michael
Raphael has begun a series of personal attacks, accusing me of flouting Divine Will, inciting the Michael Sword to rebel, and attacking Michael himself with holy fire. Since the second and third charges are true, and the first a matter of interpretation, I have kept silent upon the matter.

7th Chorus since the Fall of Michael
Raphael’s vicious rhetoric regarding humans reminds me of Uriel at his worst. Some of my supporters claim that my ‘victory over Michael’ is evidence of my true love for our Father, and the righteousness of our cause. I have stood beside righteous men. I have seen their love overpower destiny and the combined forces of Heaven and Hell. I can claim no such virtue. There’s a reason they are His favorites.

11th Chorus since the Fall of Michael – October 8th, 2011
I had nearly forgotten the thrill of Dean Winchester’s prayers. He and Sam have returned to the hunt. Raphael has lost his vessel, but he and his followers remain dedicated to the destruction of our Father’s greatest creation. Balthazar lives. He has stolen holy relics and traffics in human souls with no greater purpose than the pursuit of his own pleasure. He claims to be following in my footsteps. I wonder how many of my missing brothers might be found in bazaars, crossroads, and brothels.

We are lost. We seek His face, but He has turned from us. Oh YHWH, we are lost.

Comments

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write_light
Oct. 26th, 2010 02:23 pm (UTC)
You've gone a long way toward making the angels more understandable, something I know was bugging you. I'd like to see more of this!

I especially love the short telegraphic sentences and poetic feel of the first part (or rather 2nd chorus). That last line/summary line is brilliant and evocative.

I think the angels have been lost for a long time, since god stopped communicating with / through them, even before Michael and Lucifer imposed their structure. I also like the idea of love overpowering destiny. More please! :D

Edited at 2010-10-26 02:27 pm (UTC)
keerawa
Oct. 27th, 2010 12:34 am (UTC)
Actually, the more I write Castiel, the MORE alien he feels to me. The frist stanza is my favorite as well. Although I don't know if any of my readers are science geeky enough to fully appreciate destructive interference between angelic waves. I think it makes some kind of sense even without that background knowledge.

To me, love overpowering destiny was the theme of the season 5 finale. Thanks, write_light!
write_light
Oct. 27th, 2010 02:26 am (UTC)
It was, absolutely, and the theme of the story overall, I think.
morganoconner
Oct. 26th, 2010 03:09 pm (UTC)
Oh...oh wow, this has to be one of my favorite looks into Castiel's character yet. Spectacularly done!
keerawa
Oct. 27th, 2010 12:34 am (UTC)
Thanks, morgan, I'm glad it workedf for you!
tiptoe39
Oct. 26th, 2010 03:17 pm (UTC)
Amazing. Amazing.

I really want to see more of what Cas has been up to, wavelength or not... this scratches the itch in a big way.
keerawa
Oct. 27th, 2010 12:36 am (UTC)
It's a fascinating gap in canon for us to explore, isn't it? Thanks, tiptoe!
tabaqui
Oct. 26th, 2010 04:09 pm (UTC)
Oh, very cool. I love the otherness of it, and how, despite being angels, the angelic host acts all too human.

And Castiel's despair!
*hugs him*

Excellent stuff.
keerawa
Oct. 27th, 2010 12:42 am (UTC)
Thank you tabaqui!

I had a friend in high school with very strict parents. When he went away to college he completely lacked any moral code, or really even basic common sense of his own, since he'd never developed any internal compass to steer by. Poor guy ended up partying like crazy, and flunking out of school. That's where I see the angels at right now. Hitting rock bottom.
mizra
Oct. 26th, 2010 05:47 pm (UTC)
Very interesting take on Cas's view since Michael and Lucifer went into the Cage.
keerawa
Oct. 27th, 2010 12:42 am (UTC)
Thank you, mizra!
vasiliki
Oct. 26th, 2010 07:17 pm (UTC)
Interesting! I liked all choruses, especially the last one.
keerawa
Oct. 27th, 2010 12:43 am (UTC)
Thanks, vasiliki! The angels are a MESS.
joyyjpg
Oct. 26th, 2010 10:45 pm (UTC)
Wow, just... wow. This is amazing. ♥
keerawa
Oct. 27th, 2010 12:44 am (UTC)
Thank you, joyyipg! I'm so glad you liked it!
dragonlit
Oct. 27th, 2010 02:40 am (UTC)
Great Cas voice, with the stitled oddness that makes him unique, yet with the choice of phrasing and words gives a great glimpse into his despair and rouch of humanity. Really enjoyed this.
keerawa
Oct. 27th, 2010 06:59 am (UTC)
stitled oddness that makes him unique
Thank you! He has a very unusual voice, and POV. Truly inhuman, and interesting to play with.
mulder200
Oct. 27th, 2010 06:34 am (UTC)
Ah! Poor Cas!

I feel so bad for him and the other angels because without God, they are truly lost and floundering.
keerawa
Oct. 27th, 2010 06:59 am (UTC)
They really, really are. Thanks mulder200!
counteragent
Nov. 5th, 2010 05:35 pm (UTC)
Wow. This was awesome.
keerawa
Nov. 7th, 2010 04:33 pm (UTC)
Thanks, counteragent!
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