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SPN fic: "The Double Bottom Line" (gen)

Fandom: Supernatural
Rating: PG
Length: 850 words
Author's Notes: Set during early season 1. Thanks to dodger_winslow for the tough love beta!
Disclaimer: Sam, Dean, and the concept of Supernatural belong to Kripke and the CW.
Summary: Sam sneaks a look at his brother's journal.

Sam was digging through his brother’s duffle for a clean shirt when he found the battered Mead composition book. Its cover was a Sharpie-inked tribute to hard rock bands of the ‘70’s - Dean’s version of a pre-teen girl crushing on Justin Timberlake. Dean had been jotting notes in it since Sam was a kid, but he’d never gotten so much as a peek inside.

Sam decided to leave the notebook where he’d found it. It’s not like they had a lot of privacy, and messing with Dean’s stuff was enough to kick off a prank war.

Or, it would have been, four years ago. Now, Sam wasn’t sure, and it was freaking him out. Dean was supposed to be Dean. Five mix tapes, two food groups, and one lame pick-up line. Sometimes Dean seemed as familiar as Sam’s favorite hoodie. But sometimes, these days, his reactions were off, different than Sam expected, like there was a stranger in the driver’s seat. Sam woke up in the Impala the other night to find Dean speeding down an empty highway to the glorious strains of a Malmsteen solo, and it was as beautiful and wrong as watching the sun rise over the Pacific.

He needed to know what Dean had been up to while Sam was attending chem lab, writing papers, and blowing the curve in Latin class. What had happened, what changed him? He couldn’t ask, not without offering memories of Stanford in return, and Sam just – he wasn’t ready for that. Dad’s journal had personal stories sandwiched in between lore on every evil thing they’d ever hunted. Maybe Dean’s did, too. Hell, given how much his brother hated talking about anything important, he might prefer that Sam get his information from the journal.

Sam glanced at the bathroom door. Dean should be in the shower for at least fifteen minutes, getting that sap out of his hair. Sam pulled the notebook out from the jeans it was wrapped in, sat down on his bed, and opened the front cover.

Inside was a list of names and dates starting back when Dean was fourteen. Sam grinned down at his brother’s all-caps scrawl. Typical - Dean would keep track of his conquests. Dean had always bragged that Daisy O’Connor took his cherry, but the first entry said:
4/20/93 CAROL M (A) TX-VSP-M2

They’d spent the spring of 1993 in Galveston, so TX must be Texas. Sam spent a minute puzzling over the other codes. There were plenty of possibilities, but they all seemed a little adventurous for a fourteen year-old kid, even if that kid was Dean.

The second name in the list was a ‘Mark’. Whoa. Sam tried to imagine a sweet-faced boy sharing a cigarette with Dean under the bleachers, but the image of some skanky, balding middle-aged guy cruising the junior high playground kept intruding, which made Sam want to hit something. He checked the next few pages. Well, it couldn’t have been too traumatic an experience, because nearly half of the names in this journal were men.

Jesus. Dean could have said something. Okay, yeah, Dad would have flipped. And Sam was kind of impressed that Dean had actually done it, gone against Dad’s wishes and kept it to himself for all these years. But he could have told his own brother. Sam wouldn’t have given him crap about it, wouldn’t have judged him, at least no more that he already did for all the one-night stands, and … fuck. How did he not know this about his big brother?

Sam skimmed ahead, quickly glancing over each page, looking for August of 2001. There it was. With his researcher’s eye for patterns, the differences were obvious. When Sam left for Stanford, the entries became much more frequent. The (A) code, which had grown less common over the years, disappeared entirely. Sometimes Dean was, umm, dating three or four people in a single day. Dean had said he’d started hunting alone – guess he had more opportunities that way.

More pages. More dates. More names. Sam’s stomach felt hot and tight. Dean’s notebook was almost full, and Sam’s entire sexual history would have fit on half a page.

Sam turned to a page near the end. 11/20/05 said the first entry. And the second. And the third. And every line down the rest of the page. He turned to the next page. 11/20/05. And another page. And another. Over a hundred names in one day, and that wasn’t even possible. He had to be missing something. Sam turned back to the first entry for that date.
11/20/05 AMANDA W (A) IN-D-S

Amanda. Amanda? The flight attendant who survived the first United Britannica crash, her name was Amanda Walker. But Dean couldn’t have slept with her. They hadn’t even spent the night in Indianapolis, had skipped out of town after exorcising the demon that was trying to crash her plane.

The plane that had over one hundred passengers on board.

Oh.

Sam realized what he was looking at, and carefully tucked his brother’s journal back into the bottom of the duffle.

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kiwiana
Oct. 7th, 2009 04:41 am (UTC)
*flail*

This is just amazing! A beautiful write :)

-Maria xx
keerawa
Oct. 7th, 2009 04:48 am (UTC)
Why thank you, Maria, I'm so glad you enjoyed it!
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philomel
Oct. 7th, 2009 05:09 am (UTC)
Five mix tapes, two food groups, and one lame pick-up line.

This is lovely. :) Great reveal--it feels so fitting for Dean to keep a record like that (without it being overly-proud or smug).
keerawa
Oct. 7th, 2009 06:02 am (UTC)
Heh, Sam's view of his brother. Dean has his own reasons for hunting. thanks for reading and commenting, philomel!
callistosh65
Oct. 7th, 2009 05:24 am (UTC)
That's beautifully done - the reveal hits us the same time it hits Sam. And it's wonderful.
keerawa
Oct. 7th, 2009 06:04 am (UTC)
Thanks callisto! The timing on the reveal is entirely due to dodger_winslow's masterful beta. I'm so glad it workd for you!
counteragent
Oct. 7th, 2009 07:17 am (UTC)
Love this! Is A for "assisted"?
keerawa
Oct. 7th, 2009 01:35 pm (UTC)
Heya counteragent! Yeah, Dean uses that code when he figures he got an assist on a save. (Sam exorcised the demon; Dean was there for back-up.) Thanks for commenting!
patita_fea
Oct. 7th, 2009 09:09 am (UTC)
I love fics centering on details like this, giving texture to their lives. Very cool.
keerawa
Oct. 7th, 2009 01:36 pm (UTC)
Thank you, patita_fea, I'm glad you enjoyed it!
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keerawa
Oct. 7th, 2009 01:40 pm (UTC)
Re: excellently done
Of course - why else would Dean possibly keep a list of names? Thank you for the comment, catdancerz!
anniehow
Oct. 7th, 2009 01:33 pm (UTC)
Awesome!
keerawa
Oct. 7th, 2009 01:40 pm (UTC)
Thanks!
ruby_jelly
Oct. 7th, 2009 02:05 pm (UTC)
Simply, brilliant.

Congratulations on a unexpected premise, beautifully realised. Well done.
keerawa
Oct. 8th, 2009 03:04 am (UTC)
Thanks so much, ruby_jelly!
orehime
Oct. 7th, 2009 02:11 pm (UTC)
Nicely done \o/
keerawa
Oct. 8th, 2009 03:08 am (UTC)
Dean - 5 mix tapes, 2 food groups, and one pick in rock/paper/scissors! *grins*
just_ruth
Oct. 7th, 2009 09:53 pm (UTC)
Thank you. This was wonderful.
keerawa
Oct. 8th, 2009 03:09 am (UTC)
I'm glad you enjoyed it, just-ruth, thanks for the comment!
jesseofthenorth
Oct. 8th, 2009 01:35 am (UTC)
Love this. I couold totally see it happening. And shame you Sam, get your mind out of the gutter!
keerawa
Oct. 8th, 2009 03:11 am (UTC)
I don't blame Sam, not too much - it's easy to under-estimate Dean. I'm delighted that it felt in character to me, Jesse!
roque_clasique
Oct. 13th, 2009 04:09 am (UTC)
This is so beautiful. Perfectly, perfectly paced. Thank you.

(oh, and I totally have a fic that mentions Dean having lost his virginity to a girl named Daisy! Just thought that was funny we came up with the same name)
keerawa
Oct. 14th, 2009 02:01 am (UTC)
Thanks so much, rogue_clasique! Apparently the collective fan unconscious has determined that Dean lost his virginity to a Daisy!
nonniemous
Oct. 25th, 2009 11:32 pm (UTC)
Oh, sweet! I love Sam's misunderstanding--and what the journal turns out to be.
keerawa
Oct. 26th, 2009 01:07 am (UTC)
Thank you, klostes! Sam tends to underestimate his brother.
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keerawa
Oct. 27th, 2009 12:46 am (UTC)
*smiles* Thanks so much, lucywiggin!
jorma_duran
Oct. 27th, 2009 04:49 am (UTC)
This is wonderful! I love seeing Sam's thoughts throughout, how he thinks he's got his brother all figured out.

And then he thinks he's learned something about Dean that Sam never knew.



But then comes the big reveal, which was so well-placed and so completely demolished what Sam (and I) thought Dean was up to. Awesome!

And I love Sam's reply. Oh. Yeah, what do ya say?




Really nice insight into Dean, his motivations, and a brief glimpse at his hunting life (and the family life behind the hunts).

Thank you!
keerawa
Oct. 28th, 2009 04:33 am (UTC)
Thank you, jorma_duran! I'm delighted that the build-up and reveal worked for you.
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