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'Long Past Death Do Us Part' [PG] John/Mary

Title: Long Past Death Do Us Part
Pairing: John/Mary
Rating: PG
Length: 360 words
Author's Notes: 2nd place winner in the spnland 'Devotion' writing challenge.
Summary: John's vows didn't include a loophole.
Disclaimer: These characters belong to Kripke and the CW.

John still wears his wedding ring. It clicks loud against the grip of a shotgun the way it never did against any engine part, but he never takes it off.

John remembers Mary’s birthday and their wedding anniversary. Their first date, first kiss, the first time they made love in the back seat of the Impala, the day she agreed to marry him, the day Mary told him she was pregnant. He doesn’t mark a calendar. The dates just jump up and bite him. When it's too much he hits the bottle. And he remembers how she died. Every damn night.

When Mary’s parents died, the hellcat played housecat as if 'Betty Crocker' recipes and 'Leave it to Beaver' smiles would keep them safe. When Mary dies, John tries the same in reverse. The mechanic turns killer. He’d done it before, during the war. Apparently there was always a war. He’d just been too stupid to notice.

Mary loved their boys, and so does John. He keeps them close, keeps them safe. Even when money gets tight. Even when Jim Murphy offers to look after them. Even when Dean sings his brother a lullaby so familiar that John has to take off, take a long drive and a few drinks to stop his hands from shaking. Later John keeps away to keep them safe, even when the boys leave voice mails begging for his help. He never deletes the messages.

When it comes down to it, John can’t let their son die in that hospital bed.

Hell is Hell, but at least Mary isn’t there. John hadn’t been 100% sure, even after all his research. He claws his way out, gets in a few good hits on the demon before Dean takes it out, and ends up in Heaven. But Mary isn’t there. John thinks she is, at first. He re-lives that first date, first kiss, the day Mary told him she was pregnant; all the same memories, worn and tired round the edges. It’s not really her.

So John decides to stage a break-out, go find his wife. Some angels decide to stop him. And that? That’s when things get interesting.

Comments

keerawa
Jul. 19th, 2010 07:20 pm (UTC)
John's a fascinating character. Not very likeable, and what little we know about him is from his son's POV - not necessarily the most neutral observers. It gives a lot of room to explore in fanfiction. *nods* None of the Winchesters can be satisfied for long with something that isn't real. Thanks, dragonlit!