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A very personal fic rec

Wanna get to know me better? Go read The Puzzle (That is Me) by felisblanco. It's a J2 AU in which they are both actors on Supernatural, and Jensen has Asperger's.

For any of you that don't know, I've got Asperger's. I fake normal better than Jensen does, so if you've spent a couple of days with me, here's what I wasn't showing you about my reality. Also, if anyone out there would like to chip in and buy me Daneel Harris as a girlfriend/keeper, I wouldn't say no.


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Jan. 21st, 2011 03:44 pm (UTC)
Thank you for the rec, keerawa - I will definitely check it out.

I tend to approach any fic/films/etc with ASD characters with caution, because as a mother of a 9-yr old on the Spectrum (PDD-NOS, with a side of ADHD just for fun), I know I'm sensitive to the issue, especially if I feel it doesn't ring true. Which, yes, I know, every case is different, and not everyone will react to things like my son. I still get touchy.

Looking forward to this fic, in no small part because then I'll know you a little more.
Jan. 22nd, 2011 05:39 am (UTC)
Oh, I know, sometimes people get it all so very, very WRONG. But I think you'll like this fic.

Didn't know that about your son. It can be a rough road. But having a Mom who's interested in who he IS, rather than who he ISN'T, will make a hell of a difference.
Jan. 22nd, 2011 01:26 pm (UTC)
You were absolutely right - I liked the fic very much. There were bits and pieces that reminded me of my son (and moreso my best friend's son, who's an Aspie). So thank you again for the rec.

And yeah, it's definitely rough sometimes. But, other than wishing life were easier for him (and I wish that for my NT daughter too, so that's just a mom thing), I wouldn't change him. He's funny and wicked smart, sweet and loving and pretty much a terrific kid. And honestly, in our family being different is a good thing - I make sure my kids know that.

I read this comparison somewhere once that I use with him - it's like he has a Mac brain in a PC world. Not wrong, just different. And he knows for a fact that his mom has always been a Mac chick.
Jan. 21st, 2011 09:35 pm (UTC)
Oh hi. I'm on the spectrum, just barely. Still. Makes dealing with the humans often a puzzle. Sometimes my brilliant disguise is brilliant. And sometimes, utter fail.

felis' story had some resonation for me too, though her Jensen is more deeply affected than I.

I'd never have known by reading you here.
Jan. 22nd, 2011 05:56 am (UTC)
Oh hi, arliss! *waves* I did not know that about you, either. I hear you about the occasional utter fail. I don't even mind that much for myself - bullet-proof ego being one of the advantages of my unique snowflake of a brain. I honestly don't particularly care what people think of me. But there have been times when I ended up really upsetting someone by accident, and that sucks.

I wasn't diagnosed until I was 30. Looking back at my behavior as a child, that's pretty astonishing. I suppose some of it was because I was a girl, and at that time autism was known as a purely male phenomenon. Everyone just thought I was, ummm, wildly eccentric.

As a result of my 25-year research study on human beings, I've gotten pretty good with them. Now, unless I tell people, they just assume I'm mildly eccentric. Computers make it a lot easier. All the time you need to ponder people's textual responses and figure out what is up with them. I do fine in person, when things are going well and I can take breaks from everyone when I need to. Once things start going off-track, though, it takes more and more energy to keep it together.
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