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Meme Meme Meme

Gakked from, oh, everybody.

Where were you born?
Rhode Island. Which is a tiny little state, but not an island.

Who do you love?
Stevie!

Did you have a cat when you were little?
I had a string of outdoor cats. My favorite was this mostly feral huge black tom that would only let me near him. He terrorized the dogs in the neighborhood and eventually lost an eye in a fight. The funny thing was, when he showed up with that horrible wound, he seemed really pleased with himself. You could almost hear his purr of, “You should see the other guy.”

Who hurt you biggest?
Myself. Not because I'm self-destructive in any way, but because the hurts that most matter to me are when I fail to meet my own standards for who I should be. Other people do what they're gonna do, and sometimes they hurt you. But there's no escaping your own fuck-ups.

How do you stay alive?
Even when things are bad, I know they’ll get better. Also, having a well-paying job with benefits doesn’t hurt!

What color are your eyes?
Hazel. Blue-green-brown.

What color is your aura?
No clue. Wish I could check it the way I did my underwear in the next question.

What color is your underwear?
*checks* White.

How many people have you abandoned?
Only one, really. I lose track of people, or drift out of their lives, all the while. But we aren’t so attached that it’s a traumatic process. This, BTW, is why I don’t have casual sex anymore, even though I’m a fan of sex for fun. My social skills just aren’t up to making sure that the other person hasn’t invested far more in a hook-up than I have.

What’s your favorite food?
I adore coffee, and food with strong flavors. Onions, garlic, chocolate. I just the other day discovered that a local Lebanese restaurant has re-opened after 5 years, and they have this marinated chicken wings dish to die for. Mmmmmmm.

Did you like school?
I love school! Learning new things, and talking to people about them in this focused way. I’m known as a perpetual college student in my family.

Do you want more?
No, I’m happy with what I’ve got, thanks!

What does it mean to be in love?
It means that the person you love is always in your heart.

Do you believe in magic?
I believe that human will and intent influences reality in interesting ways.

Do people think you’re crazy?
When people first meet me, they tend to think I’m a bit odd. As they get to know me better, they realize that was just the tip of the weird iceberg that is me.

Are you?
I’m an Aspie. I think ‘crazy’ has negative connotations, but I’m not neurotypical, and I can just barely see normal from here on a clear day. I really like the way my brain works, even though I sometimes have problems because of incompatibilities or mistranslations with the people around me.

How old were you when you realized you’re all alone?
Oh, as early as I can remember. Three, perhaps?

How old were you when you realized you’re not alone?
I believe I was nine when I realized the people around me were real human beings, like me. Well, not like me really, but full of their own thoughts and feelings and motivations and dreams. It was STUNNING. I cannot even convey to you what that was like, except in an analogy.

Kids are shocked when they are told that every star in the sky is a Sun, like ours, and that there could be planets around them with life, that some alien kid could right now be looking up at the tiny dot in the night sky that is our sun, and be wondering if there are people out there. It was like that. But more so.

And I thought that it might be possible to come to understand those people, to maybe even build a bridge and connect with some of the people around me. My early efforts were, shall we say, wildly unsuccessful. But I’ve gotten better at it.

How do you wield power?
By thinking fast, being decisive, and trying not to back anyone into a corner.

What’s your favorite outfit?
Soft, old jeans and a hoodie.

What helps you sleep?
Orgasms. And if I can get to bed at the right point about an hour or two after eating a meal, that helps.

What flavors make you gag?
It’s not flavors that bug me so much as textures. Octopus. Ugh.

Do you feel beautiful?
Sure!

Are you afraid of the dark?
Nope. I’m very fond of the dark.

Do you believe in reincarnation?
Well, I hope it exists. We human beings put so much time and effort into becoming ourselves, I’d like to think we get more than just the one lifetime and one set of circumstances to perfect it.

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quoth_the
Feb. 21st, 2011 04:32 am (UTC)
I use the word crazy all the time.

When I was younger I spent a few months in a "health centre"(read: mental hospital) and I called it "Crazy Camp". I felt like since what I was doing and where I was had such negative connotations, I might as well spin it around and be all "Damn right I'm crazy, and I'm okay with that"
keerawa
Feb. 21st, 2011 04:40 am (UTC)
Makes all kinds of sense!
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