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BSG Snippet: "Time is a Circle"

Fandom/Characters: BSG; Leoben/Kara
Rating: PG-13
Length: 300 words
Challenge: Written for ds_snippets challenge #53, prompt: anniversary, awake
Spoilers: Up to 3x01
Notes: Thanks to my beta, llassah.
Disclaimer: The characters and scenario are not mine. I own nothing but a murmuring Muse.
Summary: Leoben celebrates his time with Kara.

Time is fluid. Time is a river, its flow measured in love and pain. Time is a circle. We mark our place on the circle by counting back to the events that define Us.

The other models measure their time from the destruction of the colonies, to the exact moment of the first human death, out in the reaches of space.

But We Leobens always count time from when I first met Kara Thrace. Not a prophecy or dream; her true face, hard eyes, hobbling walk, ring-decked hand slamming down on the table beside me. The moment when I called her Starbuck, her warrior-name, and she turned. Then I knew that it was all true, that Our vision of God's plan would be fulfilled.

I gave her a glimpse of the future, and she gave me pain. Pain raised doubt. Doubt brought fear. I was pinned, weaknesses exposed before her bronze laugh. A moment of connection across glass, and then I was flung away into the void.

That was five hundred days ago, and now I see Kara every day. Sometimes she rails; sometimes she pretends complaisance. Always she plots to kill me, passionate rage in her heart. Passion can be turned. I know that. We've seen it. And the deaths … they're not so bad.

Cavil complains that the downloads have become more difficult, but for Us they are easier each time. I barely resist now, when Kara harms me. Piercing pain in my throat, a gush of metallic-hot blood, and I slip into death like a warm bath. I greet the moments between death and awakening with the eagerness of a man going to his marriage bed. The death of fear - this is Kara's secret gift to Us. And one day We will share it with her.

Comments

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luzula
Mar. 28th, 2008 07:46 am (UTC)
*holds hand in front of eyes*

Are there spoilers in this? I've watched up to S3, ep 15.
keerawa
Mar. 28th, 2008 01:35 pm (UTC)
Excellent question! Sorry, I don't write in open canon shows. Spoilers up to 3x01.
luzula
Mar. 28th, 2008 01:47 pm (UTC)
Ooh, the snippet made me shiver. Beautiful language, and it's kind of creepy, which is appropriate.
keerawa
Mar. 28th, 2008 01:57 pm (UTC)
Thanks, luzula. Leoben is very creepy, yep.
tanisafan
Mar. 28th, 2008 11:43 am (UTC)
The death of fear - this is Kara's secret gift to Us. And one day We will share it with her.
Oh damn, I love that line.

This is so grim and vaguely twisted, and just perfect for their relationship. Love it to bits!
keerawa
Mar. 28th, 2008 01:48 pm (UTC)
The Leobens absolutely worship Starbuck in this, and its because of the violence, not despite it. Which, yes, is pretty darn twisted. Thank you, tanisafan!
lunasealunacy
Mar. 29th, 2008 08:25 am (UTC)
I really enjoyed how intimate this was. The line about Leobens measuring time according to Kara was really powerful. I don't think I'll be forgeting that one any time soon. Mem'd and thanks for sharing!
keerawa
Mar. 29th, 2008 03:42 pm (UTC)
Thank you, lunasea! I'm fascinated by the question of how cylons perceive identity.
jhannise
Mar. 29th, 2008 05:19 pm (UTC)
I have the flu, so I won't type much... This is an amazing Leoben/Kara piece. I usually hate first-person, but this is so eloquent... I like it!
keerawa
Mar. 30th, 2008 07:05 am (UTC)
Thank you, jhannaise! I started off with this piece in 3rd-person, fell in love with the shifts between I and We in Leoben's mind.
2_4_joy
Mar. 30th, 2008 07:14 am (UTC)
OMG, I love this! I tried to pick a favorite line to talk about, and I ended up with something from every paragraph. I love the switches from singular to plural; I love the twisted reactions from being killed over and over; I love the continuity of download.

This is just amazing, and I think my favorite thing I've ever read from BSG. Great job!
keerawa
Mar. 30th, 2008 04:18 pm (UTC)
Thanks so much, 2_4_joy! Leoben setting up housekeeping behind bars with Kara is such a truly strange scenario. It makes me think twisty thoughts.
lilibel
Mar. 30th, 2008 02:55 pm (UTC)
My internal Kara/Leoben fangirl was delighted bu this little piece.
Great job!
keerawa
Mar. 30th, 2008 04:19 pm (UTC)
I'm glad you enjoyed it, lilibel!
artemis_90
Mar. 31st, 2008 04:52 am (UTC)
whoa! Leoben's enjoying downloading because SHE's the one killing him?! so cool...
keerawa
Mar. 31st, 2008 06:09 am (UTC)
Well, it's certainly intimate. And I suppose practice makes perfect. THank you for the comment, artemis_90!
ainsley
Mar. 31st, 2008 05:44 am (UTC)
ooh, twisted leoben--you capture him perfectly.
keerawa
Mar. 31st, 2008 06:10 am (UTC)
Thanks, ainsley! He's a disturbing fellow.
mmmarmalade
Apr. 2nd, 2008 06:20 pm (UTC)
"her bronze laugh"

Awesome.
keerawa
Apr. 3rd, 2008 07:06 pm (UTC)
Thank you! I'm not even 100% sure what that description means, but I do love the sound of it.
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